3rd post! I'm on a roll!

I just read an entire book in about 2 hours. It was a book by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross about grief. In the book there were some parts about God and the afterlife, since basically the book was about people dying. I realized while reading those parts that I don't believe in God at all. It kind of surprised me. It worries me a little bit as well. Believing in God seems really wrong to me. I guess that's the only way I can explain it. I don't see how it's possible at all.

I haven't thought about this for a long time because it just isn't important enough for me to think about. But it's come up a lot recently. All the other people I interact with at the hospital and in my family are really religious and I feel awkward about it. Honestly, I think it's stupid. I don't see why I should have to talk about religion when I don't have any kind of belief except that I don't have a belief. They don't really care, I don't think, but I feel weird about it.

It kind of worries me just because of the massive amounts of people that do believe in God. I don't really know how I can be "right". But reading the stuff in the book was just ridiculous to me. To me it seems like people are expecting their refrigerator to cure cancer. It's that ridiculous. I don't get it. Or that they're counting on the ladybug on my ceiling to give me a million dollars. I don't know. I just think it's dumb and I don't get it, and it worries me.

At the same time, I don't really want to get it. I don't want to be one of those God-y people. They annoy me.

Otherwise, I think the book was good. A bunch of people at the hospital recommended books lately so I got about 4 and this was one. I think it was good. Another one I have is also a little religious so I'm kind of iffy on that. But, at least the recommender did say that as a disclaimer and understood my misgivings.