strange day

i've been having a horrible week. i am in one of my totally exhausted body phases. so i took some iron tonight. other than that the week has gone fast.

oh great, the fucking thing won't let me upload photos. i just love that.

well, yesterday i got an email from my mom (who i haven't talked to for about a month or so and was very happy about that). as i opened it i was praying, please god don't make me feel bad, please god. and it was surprisingly ok. so i was like, i guess i'll reply after work. but i just went right to bed. then this morning i go in and there's one from her that's all crappy again and made me cry. this is why i don't talk to her. but i guess i did something horrible in a past life so i have to try to appease her. therefore, i bit my tongue and replied. the past few months i have just hated her and tried to avoid her as much as possible, which has basically worked. i am sure she's totally depressed, but she should know by now why this is happening. something is wrong when a child actively tries not to talk to you.

i'm sure i've talked enough about that, even though i have 80 million other things to say. i am so mad at her and my grandparents. on and get this. next weekend i have to go to their house for easter. if there's anything that i consider hell, it's sitting through church and then sitting through a meal with my mom and her parents. i'm going to have to build myself up well for that day.

the other day i burned something in the oven (ok, it was parmesan cheese and it was in there for literally a minute and a half, but at 400). it was actually on tuesday evening. the place still smells like shit. i don't know what to do about it. i cleaned everything. maybe i should remove the trash. maybe clean the oven? it's an overwhelming horrible smell. it's not like rotten food or anything, but it's extremely burned parmesan. can't be that high on the list of great smells. ugh. i was shocked that it did that. how can something burn that thoroughly, set off the smoke detector, and stink up the apartment for ever after in a minute and a half?

oh man, i'm pissed at this image thing. Fuck off, blog. I was so excited to show everyone my first picture from my camera. It is of the courtyard.

Laura, you should remind me to tell Michael about my ringtones. You know how he has mentioned before how he wishes he could just chop a song and put it on his phone? Well, I just did that...it connects via USB. For my parents calling I used an Arcade fire song that says "Three cheers for my parents!" I absolutely love that song and especially that part. Ok, maybe I'll just use it for my dad.